GambAte!!!! LifE are cOOl n ExciTinG!!!

Recently many of my frens has went overseas… many feelings came out ….Two of them wen to London n Scottland, two of them to Australia…Miss them so much especially Sun n Yen…

Yen, a pretty gal..ohya..smart too…she is the most perfect gal i have seen b4..pretty n intelligent.. v 2 r weird…sumtimes v r good sumtimes v r far, anyway still good, ^.^… v familiar with each other since form 3…haha…don ask y…juz bcos gals r like tat…v talk a lot that time..n like crazy ppl also…still remember de days v wen to malacca together,  participate de singing contest in school, genting trip, singing K(actually is shouting like crazy ppl)with Li, Ting n Von… still remember b4 she fly off, i told her tat i admire n jealous her courage, to wen overseas herself….here too….always will pray for her…i knew god will never ever  4get a nice gal like her…live happily….if anyone bully juz tell us or come back to us…u know v wont let him go…haha…

Sun, a smart who is younger than me 1 year but same class wif us…same primary school but only familiar till form 4 i think…haha..cant remember…v stay in the same area thus v often go out yam cha(rou kemei n hw too)l sure Mr Hw is our driver…this gal is crazy…haha..like me…she is cute..dare to do many things..n now she went to scottland to further her studies herself…i jealous of her courage which i always i wish to have… i miss de daYS we go to yam cha, swimming, singing K, cooking in Ridzuan, buying vege like auntie in KL, bow tong sui, n sure , our trip to KL with wan rou….miss all these…now, v r like no energy to yamcha…to do crazy things…juz bcoz she is not here…i miss her so much, n will forever forever praying,blessing for her…Sun,live happily…i know u will!!!

Sun n yen….love u love u gals…miss u always…u know that rite? muz be happy… no matter wat, v gals r always here for u…..no matter wat, no matter when…forever is juz not enough for us…

yesterday-6/9/2005.tuesday,i was so happy!!! thX to mR pOK….cause finally he remember he Had a sister staying in subang…haha…actually i know he always remember me la…haha…still remember that monday i received his message saying that :

" wanna have dinner with mE? free? i know u r busy, but don 4get u have a brother here!!"

haha…when i read this, i laughed…dono who 4get who leh hor?? dono who is de one actually busy leh hor?? haha…anyway so happy that he cares bout me..

we went out 4 dinner although he is not hungry..we went to kim gary..i m so happy n excited(too long time dint see him liao,10 days gua) haha.. we order then we start to talk while we r waiting 4 food..he seldom talk but i tell him so many things that happen on me..he juz smile,"eating" cigarettes n listen to me..i m happy cause he looks concentrate while i m talking to him…but my heart felt pain cause he smoke a lot…hmm…wat should i do leh….

anyway we had happy time..then he send me back coz he wan go back play football…dono y..he seems mature liao…he always so protective..but he really mature liao..haha…that’s my "dai lou"..

Gambate!! gor gor… i know is hard 4 u sometimes, but i know u can do it…not bcoz of wat, juz bcoz u r AH POK who i will always here supporting n luv u!!!!

oh…y my posts all look so sad?? aam i really that not happy??

actually i m not la…haha…i still de gal who laugh loud n crazy..hehe…although i don have much frens here, but all of them care about me….so happy that last sunday b4 test Henny phone me n wish me good luck although he transfer school liao…n sure, KE MEI is de one i really appreciate..this cute girl phone me few times a week although i m in KL n she is having her IMPORTANT TRIAL STPM…she phone me everday to check me got study anot…this motivates me a lot…she is caring n always encourage me… haha..n thx to siew ling n eileen, cause they intro so many good frens to me…although i m de only 1 from tbs while all of them from tcpj, they always ask me out..everytime eileen cook she willl ask me to join,…when siew pig when clubbing wit her classmates, she ask me to join too…siao wei buy apple pie for me…oh ya, my classmate drive me back after exam…every1 every1 here treat me good, really…haha..n my house mate…some1 crazy as me…maybe she have potential to be crazier…haha..

so thx to all of my frens…they really bring happiness to me…thx ya…because of u guys, i really live happily…

oh…miss out some1…haha…is zi ting n hong wei…zi ting, everytime also drive us out for dinner, we really have happy time in every dinner…hong wei, always support me although sometimes he don really agree wat i decide…thx ya…

always love u guys!!! mucks!!!!

i suddenly think of something…i wan to say this that day but i forget liao…haha.. i wan to say thank u to alllLL my frens who cares me…yvonne, thx for send me de message u know…i feel warm …it doesnt matter liao…but thx … friendship forever..although u r bz pak tuo n study,…but thx 4 remembering me always

tHat day…i get to know something i shouldn’t know…hmm..not "shouldn’t"…juz that something makes me sad but cant tell others…now i only know i can pretend like nothing very well…have u try b4..?? tears in ur eyes, heart is sour but u sounds n talk happily…i don like to pretend n act cause i m not good at it…but now i only know y sometimes we had to do it…i cant tell…cause now i de only one who suffer, if i told XXX , sure three of us suffer….

u said i m " wei da"…haha…i m not actually…juz that telling others or u wont benefit any1…i wont get anything but only will hurt ppl more..then juz keep it…juz keep in my heart,,..   if got choice, who wan to be de one who terkorban?? i juz wan to de one who is being protected….

hmmm… guys r weird…they wan their ex to get along with their current…but they scare girls talk about that? means wat?? they did bad things?? haha…can u ?? can u get along with ur ex’s current??

hmm…another thing i wanna said is that CAN U AccEpT uR eX bE togeTHer wiTh Ur BeSSSSTT fReN?? iF ur Ex suPPose to hAve Better frIeNDSHip wIth U sUddEnLLY sO gOOOd witH ur BesSSSt fRen, u ScaREEEE? HaaaaPPPPY?? oR jEaLouSSS???

do u think it is good if u can stilll be best fren with ur ex?? actually…for me…at first i think i cant..for me is tough…but i went through all tis…last time i said to myself when a guy "dump" me at de moment i like him a lot, i will slap him before i turn back and will ignore him forever..i think i can…actually no…

i never knew that i can be so "generous"…not only being his good fren now, i also giving him advice about how to chase gals…i encourage him…can’t believe it, i can do it…is not easy…but i did it…can u?? dono y i can…is because actually i dont like him that much or i like him too much?

dono…everything past n we need not know de answer…let it be…whether u wan to hate or be fren, is ur choice…neither one is wrong….really…u can hate him actually…

ya…recently i always argue wit my machi…we fight a lot through phone…everytime end up very very unhappy…then we started to tell liEss… to prevent making each other unhappy, to protect each other, to….. ai…howver, finally we still end up with quarelling…  Is it a truth that we really have changed, or the weather is too bad?haha… i dono…i only knew that we have become more n more small gas…

sad, because i felt that we are starting to lost each other…how come??  because of de truth that guys n gals can never be good frens…. ya..i know, one day we will have our own happiness when we have found the SPECIAL ones in our life…but it seems the process of "hunting" de life partner have affect our friendship…u may kill me when u read this…but we fight for this…right?

i m tired…tired of hanging up de phones with tears, tired of scolding each other in de phone…

i m scared…scared of losing a best fren of my life, scared of being someone u dono in future…

juz because i care about u, my fren…juz only fren….nothing more between us…that’s y i m trying to save de relationship….i never ever think more than that…cause..haha…u r a good fren but not boyfren…so machi…save our friendship before we couldn’t do anything…